I know I haven't written anything in a while. It's just been a crazy time and I'm still trying to process my feelings. This is probably gonna be more of a post of strung together thoughts and words than an actual blog post. So, I apologize for that. But maybe it's how some of you are feeling and it may just help to know that you are not alone.
We took a break from the mask making and the blog posting and the book writing because Abby got really sick. I took her to the pediatrician and with her symptoms, they wanted to test for strep and Covid. When the strep came back negative, the doctor came back in the room with a gown, gloves, masks, etc. Then, they sent us to the lab for the Covid testing. After the testing, we went home where I received a call that my mom was admitted to the hospital for Covid. Anyone that knows her knows that she's been sick for as long as I can remember. She's had health problems, lung problems, blood problems, bone problems, name it- she's had it. She was on oxygen for six years when I was a child. So, I knew immediately that her and Covid won't mix well.
The next day, I woke up with the same symptoms that Abby had. Chest pain, headache, nausea, diarrhea, fatigue, muscle aches, about every symptom listed on the CDC website with the exception of fever. Every day seemed to be an entire different set of symptoms. During this time, my dad also was waiting on his Covid results. Any one who's been tested knows the feeling of fear, uncertainty, anger, concern... the list goes on.
So we'll skip all of the disgusting symptoms and drama that this week has brought during all of this and start with today. Abby's test results came back negative. Her name was spelled wrong, her collection date was wrong, her collection time was wrong... it's all just so weird and hard to believe. My dad's test also came back negative. Unfortunately, I also received the news today that they will be ventilating my mom and things aren't looking good. At all.
I know my story is just like hundreds of thousands of other people's story in the world right now. I'm just so ready for all of this to be over. For us to go to work like normal. For our children's schools open up and we can all feel safe to send them. For them to see their teammates and go to practice and competitions again. For our friends and family to stop having to fight this illness alone in the hospital without any one by their side.
I've tried to stay off social media because I'm sick and tired of the negativity and ignorance. Sick and tired of hearing everyone complain about Covid being a hoax and how their rights are being taken away just because they have not been personally affected by Covid. Because once you are, your conspiracy theories will change. And if you do feel that way, great. Why are you trying to force your opinions on others? You do you, shorty. But, You're not as "woke" as you think you are.
Seriously guys. Ya know what our world needs? Prayers. Positivity. Love. Companionship. If you need a prayer, let me know. I will pray for you. You need to vent? Message me. Call me. Stuck in your home and need some medicine and toilet paper? I got you boo. Just let me know. I'm here for you. And I'm not here to push my theories, my religion, my thoughts, or my views on you.
Without positivity and love, there is no healing.
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